His Power Your Hands

Anyway, I’ve went for the His Power Your Hands Event on the 31/10/09. And all I can say is that it’s really really fun. Tiring as well! Chasing after the kids and so on! It’s really tough work! But oh well, I really enjoyed them

Actually this time the kids are much younger then the last time when i went to Hort park with PAYM. This time round they kids varies from 3 to 6 years old. So they don really pay attention. And they all run and run and run around. However, it was really a great experience Some pictures to share Not much though since we’re not allowed to take photos. so Yup, This is the beginning when we’re waiting for the kids to come and also during dinner time

Last but not least my card

Yong ming wanted to take photo with my card as he thinks it is too cute to resist Just like me haha

Headache~

SHUCKS! Am having a bad headache now! Would love to have panadols and someone making warm milk and feeding me right now~~~ baaa~~~ That will not happen at this moment. well I’ll just have to make do with dreaming then

Anyway, Tomorrow is gonna be a good day! We have this CIP thingy call His Power Your Hands. Basically we are there to experience God’s power by healing the young children. I cannot wait for it! I make a super kawaii card! Which i will take photo of it tomorrow and show it to you guys! Now is not the good time as it is quite late and also I am drying the card. Haha. So I’ll update you guys tomorrow! NIGHT

Great day today :)

Today is really a great day! Went to have seoul garden with Don and CY! woots!!! Had my fill! so Full!!! So much so that I Had vomitted the brownie out! That’s the result of greediness! LOL But oh man! The brownie is just so delicious~~~ *smittered look* After that I went to meet Annie! Wanted to eat popeye BUT due to the over eating at seoul garden I could only watch her eat WAS SO SO SO SO SAD . Oh well, I told her that she have to come back to eat popeye with me again soon! LOL
I really enjoyed my day today! Such a wonderful day! Most importantly, I met Annie!

P.s. Girl I am glad that you’ve grown up! But you know what! You still have so much more to grow! I believe 1 day! 1 day we will both be successful Love ya

What is best friend?

A best friend:
Is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming.”

To my bestfriends,

I don’t get to see you as often as I should, or hear from you as much as I would like, but I want you to know this… I love you and I am missing you very much. Even though we could be oceans apart or just a 10 minute drive away, I hope you read this and know that I was thinking of you at this very moment (: Thank you for loving me

P.s. I shamelessly proclaim that I am one of the friend you wrote this for haha You don have to say much but i just knew it LOL

Anyway babe! I really really do misses you and i really want to see you soon!!! I will sms you soon! And you know what? I miss you! That’s why I came across your blog to see how you doing! But blogs alone is not enough! I need to feel you babe! ok does it sounds disgusting? LOL

Blogging in Office Application

Ok I am actually blogging now. This is not the right time to blog but oh man! I need to relax!!! Can you imagine going to school for the first day and My lecturer is starting her lesson now? But THANK GOD. She says that she will finish her lesson by 12 pm. So nice ^^

Anyway school have been normal, not much actually. I am literally falling asleep soon so here I am blabbering lots and lots of nonsense. I have 2 things i am currently looking forward to. I am waiting for my pay which will come at mid November or latest by December. $$$$$$ MONEY!!!

Secondly I am looking forward to tomorrow becauseI have no schools tomorrow! YES ar!!! *dreams* and ok I am back to the i want boyfriend mode. But Thank God he loves me. But that still doesn’t stop me from wanting a boyfriend you know? What a despo bitch I am LOL. But oh well. What do you expect from someone that’s out of love for 1 year?

Actually I have some karaoke pictures to upload. But I am lazy. Think I’ll update soon I hope *look around*

Actually you guys have wasted your time reading this post because I am literally sprouting nonsense! LOL Whatever it is. Enjoy your day! God bless!

Realizing I am not a good friend after all

I shouldn’t be blogging at this time. I should go to bath and get ready for work. However that urge to blog is here after reading Annie’s Blog. So here I am. I am beginning to realise that I am not a good friend after all. Seriously, I just read her blog and i realise how much she misses me. But I’m not there for her. I Always wanted my friend to be there for me, care for me etc. When they don’t Deep in my heart I just think that I am forgotten. I don’t bother making a move. Now come and think of it, I’m the same too. So what right have I to complain?

When she needed me the most, I’m not there for her and i feel really really bad. Just this week, I have been reading this Daily bread from Church and also Devotional. Even when I read through the Bible, It says I should learn to give out Love first. Let me type out what the bible says:

Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoice in Truth. Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres.

As you can see, I have none of Love characterstics, The only thing I have is being kind and does not delight in evil. However If you cannot fullfill all it’s not Love. Just like the commandments, if you break 1 mean you’re sinning. I guess I still have alot to learn about Love.

But 1 thing i know, You don’t only show love to lovers or friends. Hence, I need to learn to show love to everyone. And I know for sure, I’m not alone. Daddy God will give me the power and strength to learn to love everyone.

P.s. If you’re reading this. I’m sorry I am not there for you. But I promise when u need me just call me. I will make some time out  for you. Because you’re 1 of the few person that I want to show my love to. I can’t say I love you yet because I am still learning.

Cast your cares to God

Today God has answer my prayers. I thank God for that! Seriously, God put all these in the right timings. Yesterday, I was reading my bible and in Corinthians There’s this verse saying if all other sins you sin outside your body, but 1 particular sin you sin in your body. I won’t say what sin it is, but i committed that sin. Though it has been some time I sin and i don have that much desire to sin anymore, But there’s some bad habit that no matter how hard I try i still cannot manage to change it.

I was very conscious of it. I prayed to Lord, I told him that i really wanted to get this bad habit out, Please help me. I want to be blessed more abundantly each day. I prayed with my heart I meant it this time and not prayed it like a routine. Today i met up with Coach Gary, he gave me some advice. He says always remember that God loves you and He remembers your sins no more. No matter what you’re still the righteousness of Christ. I had doubts if i can really proclaim this in the midst of my bad habits .

Then Came the sermon, We were doing praise and worship and I felt his presence there. I can only sense it alittle but it’s good enough. Suddenly, Pastor says something that struck me, he says: I can sense that many people here the devil is chasing you. You may have some bad circumstances some addiction you couldn’t get out of, etc ( LOL i can’t remember i only remember this 2). And He wants to annoit us. I knew he’s refering to me. But i didn’t dare to go out. Thank God Meiting actually asked me if I wanna go out. I said ok.

Pastor lay his hands on me. I didn’t know when. I was there head bow eyes closed and he lay his hands on me. I tell you I was not prepared at all and there’s a force hitting me. But a good one. I moved a few steps back. Then pastor is gone and lay hands on another person. But he came back again to lay hands on me again, this time i moved much more my body just move on its own. I did not faint but i can feel that force. I felt the love flowing in. Out of the sudden, my leg is having a cramp. Thank God that the lady holding me gave me a hug. I needed it.

And the sermon! It was fantastic. Pastor says to spark off the anointing I need to cast my cares and worries to Him. Do not worry do not give thought about everything. Lead a carefree life. And in those area that you are not worried anymore, the anointing will be there. And yes I should not care about what others think of me. Because i care too much about what other thinks of me i find explaination for everything i do. But i never admit that i was wrong. From today onwards, I will cast my fears, my worries and cares to God. Because i know, even if  I make a mistake, He will be there to turn it to my good. God is a good God.

You know what. To think that I used to hate Jesus. But when you really know him, You know how kind He is to you. How much he loves you. You really wanna serve him. From now, I would want to do my praise and worship and talk to him every night. Because, he really knows what I am thinking and when I Pray to him with faith, He answers it. Thank you Lord. I needed it.

The reason why i wrote this down, it’s not to promote Jesus. But to give thanks. He deserves it. He deserves all the Glory. And i must say. I really love him more. Thank you Lord

The torturous walk is killing me

I seriously thought today would be an easy day! I only start work at … hmm I think 11 plus going to 12. And I calculated that i will end latest by 2 pm. But wahaha!!!! 人算不如天算. Human calculation will never surpass God’s calculation   There’s this place i am supposed to go. It’s at SCORE some weird rehabitilation center. But apprently i went there 3 times taking bus 2 for 4 times. Finally at  3pm i found the place *relief*

Then you know Police station they have alot of  DENY my access!!!!!! OMG!!!! I am so sad after that torturous walking they DENY my acess . The poor me. I took a bus home and I would have to go back tomorrow But oh well I guess i would have lost 3 kg? wahaha! I wished!!!

Anyway my field work manager the one that quitted! wahaha! i got his FB and MSN! And omg!!! he looked so cute in his display picture!!!! *aim* Wahaha! Going to seduce him!!!! Then he can be my bf! wahaha kidding! But seriously, he don’t look fun But when he speaks, he super humorous!!! The best thing is he can speak Catonese Chinese English and Hokkien!!!! So talented!

Or maybe when u are attracted to someone you tend to find him talented??? LOL Whatever it is, I cannot wait to talk to him again tonight! And i think Cupid’s is on my side ;p

Disgusted…

I am disgusted by my ex. Last night he actually msn me. And I replied, because I don’t want to appear that i am still bothered about him. If i don’t reply it only shows that i am not over him. And seriously, he turns me off *make a face*

We were chatting, and i must say either my english had improved tremedously, or his english literally sucks. I had such a hard time communicating to him as he doesn’t get what i am trying to say, and all he catch is I am still not over him etc -.-

The worst thing is He got the cheek to ask me out for dinner or lunch and move -.- . He already had a girlfriend for God sake!!! Of course he can ask me out just as a friend. But do you have to praise your friend cute and sexy and comment that she had lost weight and looks good now? -.- After saying all these u wanna ask your friend out. For me i think, there’s an ulterior motive!

I seriously have to thank God for healing my broken heart. When he first talk to me, I thought i am going to have sleepless night again Seeing his gf and his pictures. But I thank God that he healed my heart. This time I am not so affected I must admit I felt a little sadness. But it’s not that serious

Thank you Daddy God You never fail.

Once again, I felt disgusted by him -.- * pukes*

I hear God speaks on 13/9/09

13/9/09 is really a special day. I really grew to a next level on this day. And I became closer with Daddy God. For past 1 month plus I have been a selfish brat. And many things had happen. Bad things. I never update anything sad doesn’t mean i am leading a great life. Just that i do not want to fill my blog with bad memories.

Finally i had the answer for everything that day. For the past 1 month plus, it really was a torture, and i kept sinning and sinning, It’s the only way i relieve stress. And I was angry with God. I talked to Him, Asked Him stuffs He doesn’t answer me. I Don’t need Him to listen i need Him to talk. but He doesn’t and i am very angry.

There were times i wanted to give up being a christian. I felt that there’s no difference. The journey with God is like Journey with myself, There’s no difference and i am back to square 1. Even on that day, The worship songs when i sang it, I didn’t felt the peace the joy. And I know He knew it.

Then when we took the Holy communion I cried. I forgot what the pastor says seriously but it struck me at that moment. Tears just rolled down. Then Pastor Prince started preaching. I was not listening. My mind was filled with whether i should stop being a christian. And i Force myself to listen but nothing went it. Until Pastor prince says:

Inferior Complex<= SELF=> Superior Complex

When you focus on Self, only care about Self you will fall into this 2 category. And i fall in to Superior. I make others feel bad. I think that i am better. But I never knew that this SELF focused thing is destroying me.  At that moment I hear God speak. He says I have been focusing on Self that so much things had happen. So many bad things. On cos He can stop all these from happening since He already predicted the future. But I won’t learn. I will still focus on SELF. Of  cos Daddy God is a good God. He doesn’t create this scenario so i learn. It’s just things that happen when you focus on Self.

I really grew. This is a trial and I had passed it. Now i put him in the midst of my life and i feel so much better. I am really happy God spoke to me. Seriously, I love hearing His voice, that peace you have. Now i know he’s real. Thank you Daddy God.